Tag: gratitude

A New Birdbath

A New Birdbath

For years I’d been bothered by a certain little spot in the yard, a weedy, unkempt area at the base of the giant spruce pine that grows by the living room windows. Every time I’d walk past it, I’d say to myself, “Boy, that looks 

Habitat for the Soul

Habitat for the Soul

One of the biggest reasons I spend so much time in my garden is the hope that I find there. Whenever I feel myself losing faith, I go outside and I can find it again. It’s been like that for as long as I can 

Staycationing

Staycationing

A white cottage surrounded by green plants

Last Thursday and Friday I asked off from work so I could have a long weekend. But I didn’t plan to go to the beach or Disney World or St. Augustine or anywhere at all. No, I planned to stay home (with my cats and my flowers) the entire time.

Some of my coworkers were skeptical.

“Oh, but you don’t understand,” I said, laughing. “This is my dream vacation!”

And it didn’t disappoint me, not a bit.

On Wednesday evening, I sat on the front porch and watched the sun set over my beds of woodland sunflowers. I waved to my neighbor Doretha, who was sitting on her front porch, and, as we often do, we had a shouted conversation across the surprisingly busy street that runs between our two big front yards like a river. As usual, neither of us could quite hear what the other was saying, but it didn’t matter. Shouting back and forth across the street in a friendly fashion is always a pleasant ritual.

Doretha’s front walk is lined on both sides by wide, sun-drenched boxwood hedges, which she often uses for clothes-drying. The hedges are cut into long rectangles, so the clothes can lie on top nice and flat. Doretha’s house is so pretty, with a deep, shady porch and trim painted sky-blue. I love that her house, surrounded by woods, is part of the view from my own porch.

Oh, I had lots of fun on my days off. And it was wonderfully slow, unexciting fun—my favorite kind.

Everything I did, I did as inefficiently as possible. For example, when I carried out the trash, I took the scenic route to the garbage can. I walked around the whole house just so I could enjoy the ferns, banana spiders, trumpetflowers, and lemony pools of sunlight along the way.

There’s a line from Thornton Wilder’s play Our Town that I’d been thinking about in the days leading up to my staycation: “Does anyone ever realize life while they live it … every, every minute?”

What I wanted to do over my long weekend was try to realize life, to slow down and appreciate it. So I watched birds in the backyard and fed watermelon to the box turtles that roam in our old vegetable garden. I played with my cat Carl as he rolled and curled (so cutely!) on the rug in the bedroom and made bunny paws. I picked pears, sun-warmed and snowy white inside, and I tried not to fret about the future or the past but to focus on now, sweet now.

Morning sun streaming through the trees
Glorious sun on the south side of the yard
A bunny statue in a little wooden shrine
My bunny shrine on the breezeway
A bench surrounded by flowers and plants
This bench is one of my favorite things. I bought it when I was young, and it took me a long time to save up for it.
A bunny statue next to a vintage lamp
I always end up feeling sorry for my garden statues and bringing them inside.
The Little Things

The Little Things

The other day I read an interesting opinion piece in USA Today suggesting that the current epidemic of depression in America (suicide rates have increased dramatically over the past 20 years) is largely caused by our culture’s overemphasis on personal accomplishment. Our emotional suffering, the 

Ode to Spring

Ode to Spring

Spring is my favorite season. It always has been. When I was a child, spring started, in my opinion, in February, when the wild violets appeared like magic in the little scrap of woods behind our backyard in Tallahassee. My sister Kris and I would 

Bernie

Bernie

I finally got a picture of Bernie, the old stray cat I feed (and truly care about). The quality of the picture isn’t very good (I had to take it quick before he got scared), but he sure is cute.

Rob says Bernie looks like a cartoon version of an alley cat, with his crooked ears and his sad eyes. Bernie isn’t tame. I can’t pet him or even get very close to him, but I love him nonetheless. Bernie is probably the father of just about all our 11 cats. I call him a “retired tom,” because for years he was the king of our country neighborhood, roaming about, fighting with the other toms and winning over the ladies, but now, in his old age, he has settled down. He spends his time resting on the landing outside our utility room, waiting for me to bring him his Fancy Feast. When I do, I always greet him and try to tell him how much I care and he always hisses at me. That is our relationship. When he hisses at me, I know everything is as it should be and that he’s doing all right. (I’m always worried about poor old Bernie.)

I wish I could have intervened earlier in his life, gotten him fixed and brought him inside. I think he would have made a great pet, because he’s really very gentle for a feral cat. He’s so small. And I love his sweet, forlorn expression, his puppy-dog eyes. The trouble was, we could never catch him, and now I feel it’s too late even to get him fixed. (I’d have to trap him, and he’d be terrified.) He doesn’t fight anymore. He just lies in the sun on the landing, sometimes sleeping, sometimes not. I feed him before I go to work and when I get home again. When I come in the door after work, Rob always tells me, “Mr. Bernie’s waiting for his supper.” And I go and fix up his bowl, fill it nice and full. (The reason Rob doesn’t feed Bernie is that he knows I want to do it.)

I’m glad Bernie’s getting a bit of rest now in his golden years. I’m glad the landing where he lies is sun-washed and warm and that it offers a pleasant view of the yard. I often see him blinking and looking sleepily around. Here are some of the sights that surround him on these early-September days:

Surprise lilies
Ripening beautyberries
Tabasco peppers
Katie Road Pink rose hip
Orient pears
Caladiums in the Vine House
A Summer Night

A Summer Night

Summer is my favorite season at Spruce Pine Cottage. It’s the green time, the lush, sultry time, the time when the rosinweed blooms and the garden is full of tomatoes. Box turtles come out in the rain. Nighttime is even better than daytime because there 

Josie

Josie

Two weeks ago, our cat Josie got very sick. She had a 105-degree temperature. She wouldn’t eat. All she wanted to do was sleep. We thought she was going to die, but it turned out she just had a bad urinary tract infection. We gave 

In the Depths of August

In the Depths of August

Here’s just a quick list of some of the sights and sounds of the weekend:

Lovebugs everywhere

Wrens chattering in the sumac

A little eggplant harvest

Muscadine grapes, fresh from the vine

Open windows

A strange breeze (from the hurricane)

Tiger swallowtails on the ironweed

Red mushrooms in the grass

Cats lounging in sunbeams

Yesterday I did a whole bunch of weeding while Rob mowed the lawn and cleaned out the gutters. I actually love to weed. It’s so peaceful and it gives me a chance to really look at my plants, really study them and their surroundings. Yesterday while I was weeding I discovered all kinds of interesting things: cute mushrooms, raccoon tracks, and tiny fiddleheads. I saw ladybugs and toads and hummingbirds and big, float-y tiger swallowtails. If I hadn’t been weeding way back in the back of the big bed along North Adams Street, I would’ve never even known my old roses were blooming; they’re so hidden among all the raucous perennialsthe purple coneflowers and ironweed and bearpawthat you have to wade in really deep to see them. You have to get up close.

Here’s Baronne Henriette de Snoy.
Baronne Henriette de Snoy again
And Maman Cochet

Aside from weeding, I also did a lot of cat brushing out on the screen porch. The cats were so lazy this weekend, especially today. Carl slept on top of the pie safe, and Francie lay on her back on the couch, her long white feet in the air to catch the breezes.

Here’s how the breezeway looks with the new Coke sign we got in Dothan last weekend. 

I made a peach cobbler today, and vegan macaroni and cheese with a miraculous creamy sauce concocted from ground raw cashews. Rob made the best seitan, flavored like sausage with sage and crushed red pepper. We ate on the screen porch surrounded by napping cats and, farther off, the shaggy August meadows. I could see the rosinweed flowers as round and yellow as happy faces, and the complicated surprise lilies (they look like whirling eggbeaters, I think).

I should have taken a picture of the surprise lilies, because they won’t last long. Oh, well, here’s a picture of the back of the house as seen through the lemongrass.